No More.

as always. i thought i had forgot. but actually no. i really hate myself why can he just like pretend nothing happened before between us? i really don't like when he can still waving his hands with his smile and saying hi to me? what's wrong going on? am i the problem? maybe people will said i'm the one who reject him once. hey! i'm the victim kay?! you know what? you guys went to the beach. that time is his birthday. he still waiting for my 3rd answer. fuck yeah. why you want to upload both of your picture before i let you know the answer. i was really sad. serious. VERY, DAMN sad. fine. he used that picture as his twitter background picture! damn you, jerk! i was not only sad that time, i was hurt. i thought that he's serious at the third time. no! i was wrong! wrong like hell! if i didn't saw that picture. maybe i'll accept you the third time! but why? why you want to do like that? twitter background picture? fine. i saw the necklace you wore! damn it! please don't wear it anymore! and please be more smart. don't you know that i'll saw that picture also? wearing my necklace and then take picture with her! only you 2! i was mad! that day morning, school having activities. and we're the partner. that day is his birthday. and, she and her friends took a cake and celebrate with him. fuck yeah. please don't play with that cake until i need to clean it up as my job. damn, i never touch even the flour or cream of that cake. i saw! i saw everything! you guys played happily! i was just like an idiot, keep smiling, and pretending nothing happen. oh damn! i can't stand wit this situation anymore, until i sweep the floor half, i went away. i don't want to see your shitty face! i saw his blog. saying that how she loves him, how she make him happy! yeah i know! i don't know how to comfort people. but please, i'm your girl that time. why can you treat me like that? you said she's good to you. hah. i laughed. people with me will laughed.  she's good? no. if she is, she will not use some tricks to make you see her like so pity. she said right, go back to me! fuck, i do not need the guy who can't make this such of easy decision. i rather him don't ask me the 3rd time. but why he asked? he's jerk. he's totally a jerk. i really can't imagine what you all did at the beach that night. he just left me. and i was so confused with what i want, but both of them are happy like hell. maybe they know they will be each other from that night. i wonder if i accept him the 3rd time, what will that bitch do? kill me? hah. anyway, i hate you guys. not only both of you. her friends too. if they are really true friends, they'll never support her to make such a decision. after we broke the 2nd time, what did she did??? until he can be her boyfriend as fast as lightning?! or i'm that idiot? i really don't know how to forget a people who hurt me SO DAMN MUCH. sorry, i can't. i can't forgive such of person. i can't trust any guys in my life anymore. yeah, there is a guy appear. he's good. but i can't trust that he can treat me good. just like the jerk!