March now...

so fast. today is the first day of March. i have a good news and also a bad news! the good news is, only 6 pupils pass their addmaths test! and ya! i'm one of them. my chinese paper get the 2nd highest mark. i'm really proud of myself. i get all this marks by myself. but, i'm going to leave. i'm going to leave my house maybe this year. suddenly feel so sad. especially i'm listening to kpop sad song and hearing the conversations between my dad and those strangers. i just feel that they'll buy my house. i'm going to live at a house there is 15-20 minutes far from my school. i forced my parents to teach my how to drive a car. it's more easier for me to go here and go there. i'll be 17 next year. so good la. i can straight away pass my driving lesson! i'm so emo now. i just feel sad to leave my house that i had live for 16 years......... but i think, i need to learn 1 thing very important! i must learn how to let go. same like my relationship, i can't let go so easily.... that's why i'm so suffer from that. unlike him, so relax! i really want to punch him when i saw him! these few days, i'm just crazy for TOU FU FA!! so nice! so smooth. so hot! taste really nice! 

Girl Groups ranking by Height

Shortest

Brown Eyed Girls

SECRET

2NE1

KARA

Short

Gixrl's Generation

Wonder Girls

Piggy Dolls

4minute

Jewelry

T-ara

miss A

Average

Davichi

5 Dolls

A-Pink

Girls' Day

SISTAR

Tall

f(x)

Chocolat

SPICA

CSJH

Giant

After School

Rania

Dal Shabet

Nine Muses

Boy Groups ranking by Height

Extremely Short

TEEN TOP 

B2ST 

D-NA 

FT Island

Dalmatian

N-Train 

Short

Big Bang 

Boyfriend 

Block B 

INFINITE 

Average

Twilight 

Super Junior 

ZE:A 

MBLAQ

My Name

SHINee

B.A.P

Tall

Chaos 

Touch

BoM

M.I.B

B1A4

Hit

U-KISS 

AA (Double A)

2PM 

Giant

2AM 

TVXQ

SS501 

Speed (Co-Ed School) 

CNBLUE 

Supernova

F.Cuz 

X5

Boy Groups ranking by Weight.

Why am I Living?
Teen Top

My Name

SHINee

INFINITE

ZE: A

Twilight

FT Island
No Need For Words

LED Apple

Block B

BIG BANG

N-Train

DALMATION

Beast

Not Average
B1A4

CHAOS

TOUCH

CNBLUE

DBSK

MBLAQ

This is Average
AA

Super Junior

U-KISS

B.o.M

B.A.P

SPEED

ss501

Height and Weight are Propotional
F.CUZ

X-5

Supernova

M.I.B

2AM

2PM

Suzy - I Still Love You (BIG Ost)

Lyrics (Hangul + Romanization + English Translation)

벌써 눈물이 아닌 줄 알면서Beolsseo nunmuri anin jul almyeonseoI know I shouldn’t cry already 
왜 자꾸 눈물이?wae jakku nunmuribut why do I keep crying?
널 향한 마음이 제멋 대로Neol hyanghan maeumi jemeotdaero My heart toward you acts however it wants
나를 나를 너에게 보내는걸nareul nareul neoege bonaeneungeolSo it keeps sending me to you
너무 아프다 나만 이런 감정을Neomu apeuda naman ireon gamjeongeul It hurts so much that I’m the only one 
같고 있는게gatgo inneun gewho feels like this
니가 나를 바라보지 않는게Niga nareul baraboji annneun geThat you aren’t looking at me
이런 내가 널 불변 하겠지만Ireon naega neon bulpyeonhagetjimanThough you are probably uncomfortable with me

그래도 사랑해 너를 사랑해Geuraedo saranghae neoreul saranghaeI still love you, I love you
다른 건 몰라도 내가 널 원해Dareun geon mollado naega neol wonhaeThough I don’t know anything else, I know I want you
다가가려 할수록 가까워만 질수록Dagagaryeo halsurok gakkawoman jilsurokThe more I try to approach you, the more I try to get close
도망치는 니가 날 외롭게 하는걸 ~domangchineun niga nal oeropge haneungeol ~ ohYou try to run away and that makes me lonely

눈물이 멈추지 않아 않아요Nunmuri meomchuji anha anhayoMy tears are not stopping
멀어지면 안돼 안돼 안돼요Meoreojimyeon andwae andwae andwaeyoYou can’t, can’t, can’t get farther away
도망치지 말아줘Domangchiji marajwoDon’t run away
돌아서지 말아줘 내게서 제발doraseoji marajwo naegeseo jebalDon’t turn away from me, please

서로 행복해떤  너무 좋았어떤Seoro haengbokhaetdeon neomu johasseotdeon Because our happy and good times keep passing me by,
시간이 스쳐서sigani seuchyeoseoBecause I feel like
죽도록 후회할 것만 같아서Jukdorok huhoehal geotman gataseoI will regret this till I die, 
지금 너에게 난 할말이 있어 ~ ohjigeum neoege nan halmari isseo ~ ohI have something to tell you right now

그래도 사랑해 너를 사랑해Geuraedo saranghae neoreul saranghaeI still love you, I love you
다른 건 몰라도 내가 널 원해Dareun geon mollado naega neol wonhaeThough I don’t know anything else, I know I want you
다가가려 할수록 가까워만 질수록Dagagaryeo halsurok gakkawoman jilsurok The more I try to approach you, the more I try to get close
도망치는 니가 날 외롭게 하는걸 ~ domangchineun niga nal oeropge haneungeol ~ ohYou try to run away and that makes me lonely

눈물이 멈추지 않아 않아요Nunmuri meomchuji anha anhayoMy tears are not stopping
멀어지면 안돼 안돼 안돼요Meoreojimyeon andwae andwae andwaeyoYou can’t, can’t, can’t get farther away
도망치지 말아줘Domangchiji marajwoDon’t run away
돌아서지 말아줘 내게서 제발doraseoji marajwo naegeseo jebalDon’t turn away from me, please

니가 돌아오고 싶을 때Niga doraogo sipeul ttae Whenever you want to come back, 
그때 내게 돌아와 도 돼geuttae naege dorawado dwaeyou can come back to me
널 사랑하니까 ~ Neol saranghanikkaBecause I love you

날 사랑 안해도 나는 괜찮아Nal sarang an haedo naneun gwaenchanhaI’m okay even if you don’t love me
널 볼수 있다면 뭐든 난 좋아Neol bol su itdamyeon mwodeun nan johaIf I can just see you, I’m fine with anything
사랑하면 할수록 깊어지면 질수록Saranghamyeon halsurok gipeojimyeon jilsurokThe more I love you, the deeper this gets,멀어지는 니가 나는 너무 두려워 ~ ohmeoreojineun niga naneun neomu duryeowo ~ ohYou get farther away and that scares me

눈물이 멈추지 않아 않아요Nunmuri meomchuji anha anhayoMy tears are not stopping
멀어지면 안돼 안돼 안돼요Meoreojimyeon andwae andwae andwaeyoYou can’t, can’t, can’t get farther away
도망치지 말아줘Domangchiji marajwoDon’t run away
돌아서지 말아줘 내게서 제발doraseoji marajwo naegeseo jebalDon’t turn away from me, please

Now Only I Know!

i saw this today! YOU MIGHT GET ATTRACTED TO ANOTHER PERSON BUT YOU WON'T SIMPLY FALL IN LOVE, IF SOMEONE ELSE IS STILL HOLDING A BIG PART OF YOUR LOVE. so yeah... what's my feeling to you. i can't sure yet! but i'm sure that! my ex- is already gone from my heart. i used 1 year time to delete our memories from my memory! so suffer! and you! i love? i like? i don't know... someone please help me to confirm this! nowadays my posts are almost all about you. i can feel that these few days you keep starring at me. and of course i look at you when other else doesn't know that! haha! i'm scared to face you! seriously, I DON'T EASILY TRUST PEOPLE WITH MY FEELINGS. SO WHEN I TRUST YOU WITH I HAVE GOT. PLEASE DON'T LET ME REGRET. please! i beg you! suddenly i think of 1 song of the lyrics can represent my feelings to you! it is Adele's Someone Like You. i really really really love this song! especially the chorus lyrics! NEVER MIND I'LL FIND, SOMEONE LIKE YOU. I WISH NOTHING BUT THE BEST, FOR YOU TOO. DON'T FORGET ME, I BEG! I'LL REMEMBER YOU SAY, SOMETIMES IT LAST IN LOVE, BUT SOMETIMES IT HURTS INSTEAD! so, if we're no longer of any possibility, i wish we don't say goodbye! i need you. i want you! before i found another person. and of course before you another one. we get back together okay?

I Heard!

i heard what you said. you told your friends that i'm beautiful! i heard that. actually i already want to give up. how i know. i heard what you said. and i was just like, why you treat me like that....? i thought you do not want to see me again. do not want to look at me again! how i know i heard you said 'beautiful right?' to your friend and pointing at me. i just act like i didn't heard that. this happened at yesterday. today, you keep pointing at me to your friends and your friends look at me. once again, i act like i didn't saw it. i thought you gave up on. that's why now i starting to give me on you. why you want to like that? i'm so confusing! sorry, i do not brave to tell you what's my feeling to you now. unless, you tell me! I DIDN'T CHOOSE YOU. MY HEART DID. you know what? i'm the one who always suffer! the ex- girl friend sitting beside me. and you're not beside me! ya! NEVER BE UPSET IF YOU SEE YOUR EX WITH SOMEONE ELSE BECAUSE YOUR PARENTS TAUGHT YOU TO GIVE YOUR USED TOYS TO THE LESS FORTUNATE. i gave! although it talks like very easy. but when you do, it is another thing happen. i wish! i could forget everything! i wish i could delete this fucking things, fucking memories from my brain and put in many many many of knowledge inside! I NEED A HUG. when i'm not that strong anymore. when i'm sad. when i need someone around me. when the someone love me. when the someone needs me! nowadays, i less sing chinese song. i love korean song! i have more feeling with it. but, the question is, not very much of lyrics i can memorize! i'll try my best! i think i can do it successfully! 

Busy Life...

Chinese New Year is now left few days.... *sigh* time, why you pass so fast?? i'm busy because of my life! homework, school, tuition, and many more fucking busy things. only korean variety show. only k-pop. they can release my stress. i found happiness in there. i laughed like hell! like an idiot! i think that's real me. so when can i show my real one to others? i think it might be impossible. exam is now around the corner. i have no time to blogging. although i really want to! i want to share my everything in this blog! i really scared of my exam! but seriously, i have no motivation to study! to someone, fall in love with my and persuade me to study. let's study together! i'll fall asleep if i study myself! i need someone who really can accompany me to do my homework, do revision together, he can answer my question and we love each other! so difficult to find this type of guys right? never mind. i'll wait! wait for you! oh yeah! i sang at school yesterday. the whole gang of guys were waving their hands when i'm singing. scream when i'm singing. clapped their hands loudly after i sang finish. inside of the gang, someone can calculate as my crush! he smile! i saw him smiling. i less saw him smiling like yesterday. i just think of it, he smile because i'm singing, he felt happy! hahahahaha! he waves his hands also! i was really happy! that's why i sing better in the 2nd song. suddenly, i wish i could sing on the stage for him! for them also. i love to ear the claps hands sound! i enjoy it very very very much. but need to see the timing. maybe i have chance to sing on the stage in my all life! 

Forgot....

The one that made me regret had forgot about me...... he did not even look at me once! i was terrible fed up... seriously, i thought we would get into a relationship if he still love me, if he still remember me, if he still can't forget about me.... obviously, he was not that serious to me. someone said, IN EVERY GIRL'S LIFE, THERE IS A BOY SHE'LL NEVER FORGET. IN EVERY BOY'S LIFE, THERE IS A GIRL HE CAN NEVER GET. you know, if we can't get into a relationship. at least, at least i hope that i'm the girl in your life that you can never get.... i'm really an idiot. when i just want to start my relationship, when i think properly to have my sweet memories, he gone! this happened twice! why?!!!! when i just started to love you, and suddenly you disappear in my life. i feel so stupid! just because of this, i not dare to tell me friends. give me some times, let me to forget you. not that long actually! i just used 10 months to forget my ex-. actually not yet completely deleted from my memory. somebody said, DON'T EVER FORCE YOURSELF TO FORGET SOMEONE. YOU'LL JUST REMEMBER THE PEOPLE BUT NOT FORGETTING. FOR EXAMPLE, I TALK ABOUT A PINK TIGER. AND I ASK YOU TO FORGET, YOU'LL JUST FORCE YOURSELF TO IMAGINE THE TIGER IN PINK COLOR, ISN'T? SO, IF YOU WANT TO FORGET A PERSON, LET IT FORGET SLOWLY, SMOOTHLY. TIME WILL HELP YOU! and yeah, i pass this forgetting people to TIME. i wish that he could done this mission impossible successfully. whenever friends asked me whether it's okay or not, i answered them alright or nothing happened. but if you really knows me, my answer actually was I'M NOT FINE. I NEED A HUG. i really need a hug from the person i need! i'm stress because of homework, stress because of love! to someone i need, come to me, I NEED YOU BLOODY MUCH!