A New One???

and yea... haha. my friend's boyfriend just came back from Australia. she looks so happy and he too. her boyfriend always scared that i'm too lonely when i was with them. you know, no one kiss you, no one hug you and no one talk to you so closely. but when you saw a couple that always kissing, hugging, talking, what do you feel? he ask her to ask me to find someone so that i won't always be alone when hang out with them. but seriously, i'm quite that lonely, because you know, i never did those stuffs with my one i don't kiss, i don't hug, but if i did, i really love them, i think. if the one is just like one of my ideal type, oh damn god! i must thank god! i must love god! haha. but now, i still don't need a boyfriend. i always can't sure that those boys that admiring me is through their heart or just wanna have some fun. you know, i being hurt by someone. so most of them can't know how i feel. i also don't need them to understand my feeling. i need a man, a true man that really can see through me. no one else did that until now, including my best buddies. but, maybe they don't have the responsibility to that on me. anyway, if i have a boyfriend, haha! that is the time my friend being suffer. her boyfriend at australia so cannot always meet except for holidays. maybe she will see my boyfriend and i. but, i SWEAR, if there is someone that really can see through me, that can know me very well without asking, that will love me, that will treat me with his true heart, finding me like hell when e can't contact me, scold me right after i contact him, hug me when we meet each other, can accepted by my siblings and friends. parents are not that fast! haha! and i'm waiting you. seems like i always waiting for someone. and yea, i'll wait for you!