Hurt

when i was small, i thought that i was born in a very happy family. but when i grow bigger, i just realize that it's no at all. you know what? i have parents and 3 sisters. all doesn't like me. when i was small, i thought that my parents give me lots of love. but, it isn't like that when i was now in secondary school. my father can scold me without any reason or with some very ridiculous reasons. DAFUQ. i was scared when he suddenly shout at me. i'm sure that not evryone can affort his shout. luckily i'm a person who do not cry easily and shout in front of people. that's why i always hide in my bedroom and cry silently. EVERYTIME. i just feel that why he treat me like that? why he can treat my 3 elder sisters so nice? i'm hurt. i'm totally hurt. my mother always thought that i couldn't do this and do that. what the fuck? i'm her daughter. always blame me! i hate this type of mother. she give my sisters money whenever they need. sometimes, i just need rm30 to hang out with friends, and she always said that she has no money. i don't know why! why there is such a mother in this world? fine. i just heard an artist said, parents doesn't need anything from their children. my moter is different! TOTALLY DIFFERENT! she asks me to give her back money when i'm an adult. she asks me to give her lots of plane ticket so that she can go travel. lots of thing she wants me to return her. she always thought that she, that become a mother is such a tired character that always need to accompany to singing class, pay the fee and also the costume. doesn't she think about me. i'm the one who should stand on the stage and need to face to all the audiences and feel so stress.i'm the one who is most tiring. as you can see, she didn't think about this. my elder sister is a bit bitcy! she poured water on my head that she drank. fuck yeah! you know what i feel? i almost wanna hit her! i asked her to be careful! don't do such bitchy thing anymore. and, i always wanna have a distance from her. you know what. she always touch me! oh totally fuck! she touch my hands, legs, butts.using his finger with some 'vibrations'! what the fuck!!!!!! whenever she came near me, i always walk away from her! she is totally a BITCHY BITCH! and, no one ever can meet such bitchy sister! but unluckily, i'm the one who met it. i must did something bad last time! that's why i met her this time! my second sister always tease me. just like when i did not did something wrong, and she will say something really bad. i hate!  my third sister! she's so horrible. she act in front of other people. she just like tret me so good in front of others. but she's not like that! i don't know why all my family member will like her so much? i hate her! i'm taller than her so much and stronger than her so much! is that my fault? she is the one who's short. i think she is just 149 or 150cm. she is short. why everyone said i stole her food. can't a younger sister taller than her elder sister? FUCK! i must fuck all the people who said such a fucking word out! if a younger sister must weaker than her elder sister. then i must be 140cm now! that's impossible. i'm good at sport that's why i'm so strong and tall. i like badminton, swimming, basketball, jogging, gym and others! i like all sports! what about her? she have many scars on her legs. that's why she never wear short pants when she have theese scares. i saw her scars silently before. so scary! just like many small snaes on her legs! and ya! i hate my family! i think all of secondary students thougt this before! and i'm the one. i'm still a secondary school, so i can hate my family members so much! ya! i hurt, i sad, i angry, i hate in this family. but no where else can let me say out except this blog. thanks blog. but i'm still hurting. someone please help me! to: SOMEONE, i'm waiting you for so long time. please help me. i'm so tired! take me out please!