A Book...

i read a book these few days... i not yet finish reading but i had already learnt many things from that book. and i just read for only 1/5 of that book. i like the author. this is the 2nd book that i have that written by him! seriously, the quote is nice! i love it very much. one of it is, IF YOU LIKE A PERSON, BUT YOU'RE SAD BECAUSE OF HIM, JUST STOP LIKING HIM, PLEASE DO NOT CHANGE TO LOVE FROM LIKE, YOU'LL REGRET. the Jungshin, unfortunately, he gave me sadness because he didn't even notice about me. i'll just try to forget him. i wish i'm not going to turn to love. i feel so true when i read this quote. it lets me thought about that indian guy. actually i just like him before that.... after a long time, likeness had already changed. it changed. it changed quietly without my permission. without i knowing. that's why i'm suffer. it had changed to love. so suffer. so sad... i feel so regret... ya... I JUST TURN MY HEAD BACK NOW, BUT I JUST REALIZE THAT IT WAS TOO LATE. EVERYTHING WAS HAPPENED IN A SECOND. TIME IS NEVER WAIT FOR YOU. never mind, i'll just let it go. let everything go. let nothing be my side until one day, he comes to me. to my 'he', you'll come for me, right? okay. i'll just wait for you and see. and, I ACCIDENTALLY COUGH BY THE DUST. BUT LUCKILY, I DIDN'T COUGH BY MY MEMORIES, IF NOT, I'LL JUST DIE IN THE PAST. please never! never let the past to influence you doing anything or making any decisions! do it or make it follow your truly heart! you'll never regret! trust me! it's time now. TO MY PAST, I'LL JUST FORGET ABOUT YOU AND DISAPPEAR FROM THERE. TO MY FUTURE, I'M NOW READY.

What Should I Do??

how???? eotteoke?? what should i do now? i'm so blank? on facebook, don't know want to stalk who. on twitter, don't know what to tweet. hate this type of life. lifeless! my heart always say must do finish all the homework. only my heart says to me. no motivation. no action. muscles doesn't want to do. how? hate! but i'll just keep trying being a hardworking people! i want to get good result! i want to be a perfect girl. the most problem that i met is. i gained my weight! i'm going to do a lot a lot a lot a lot of exercise! i'll eat less carbohydrate. and eat more proteins. you know why? body burns carbohydrates then oils and proteins to require more energy. if i eat lots of carbohydrates, it has less chance to burn my fats and oils! i have a plan! do exercise every sunday! i'm going to jog with my parents early in the morning. then, i'll go for badminton, then gym then swimming. i'm sure that i'll loss my weight. then, i'll do sit up whenever i'm free. i must do on the bed.. if i do on the floor, my backbone will very pain. i tried! seriously can't do it. next i want to say is, my school's Jungshin seems like didn't notice about me..... so sad.....

Forget...

i'm so scared now. i scared because i was feel like myself changed a lot. i had forgot how to smile happily. i miss when i was young. no need to think and solve those fucking crazy problems! i forgot how to cry. 2 years ago, i cried easily. i can drop my tears without 20 seconds! but now. you give me 20 minutes also cannot...... so sad! i forgot how to shout. maybe i want to prove to everyone that i'm a strong girl. so that, never shout in front of anyone. that's why everyone thought that i'm so strong. i never cried in front of people for 3 years. the last time was when i fall down at school. and it was really pain. but after that, no one saw me cry again. how? argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! any solution to solve this problem? just like physics or mathematics. i'm sure there's a formula! there's a solution! help me to find out the solution please! i'm so suffer!!!!!

Maybe?

ya. i used 1 10 months to forget my ex-. and i used 6 months to forget him. now, i have a new target here. he looks like CN Blue's Jungshin. all my friends say so. did i feel it wrongly? did he also starring at me sometimes? haha! maybe i just think too much. if it's real, i hope that we can last long. i think i know that he's quite a good boy. he's so quiet. he loves his family very much as his facebook photos are most of is family! he's tall! he's smart! he's handsome! he's fit! did i told that Jungshin is my one of the ideal type. i never expect that such a perfect person will appear in front of me. in school, sometimes we just met with so sudden.  i think he never expect it too. don't know? i just feel that maybe he have some feeling to me. but never told his friends unlike me, all y friends knew about that. whenever he walk across me, my friends will just shout out my name loudly! so embarrassing! i pray hard to God, hope that he could like me, he could love. because of him, i only can use 6 month to forget the indian guy. if not, i need another person to let me forget about him. at first when i saw him, i just feel that he extremely looks like Jungshin. and after that, i don't know what's happening. suddenly, go for recess just because of him. always starring at him so that he could look at me. but sometimes he really did. MAYBE. maybe i fall in love with him already. but i never want to speak to him or want to act something in front of him, not because i don't want. it's because that i know what's the ending. i know that there's no ending there! that's why. i just look at him so silently..... silently.... 

Let Go...

i am so sad. i am so moody. as a human, i think i should learn something. i should let go something or someone. if not, i was just like now, such an useless female. what should i do now? i cried. i cried because of you. i went to watch movie with my friends. the day before i go, i prayed hardly to God so that i could see you on that day. the God heard what i say. i saw you after the movie had end. i was really damn happy. i can't let my friends know that i love you. to see you more clearly, i ask my friends to walk faster. you saw me. but i act like didn't saw you. i walk so fast behind you. until you're going down, my friend ask me to wait for other friends. before that i saw a new her walking with you. at first, i thought you watch it yourself. unfortunately, you have a new her accompany you. i was so moody after that. maybe the God just want us to look at each other, but not meet. then, you're then far away from me already. until the 2nd floor, i just want to chase after you. but you're just like disappear. seriously, i couldn't find you. and i was just like so suffer when i saw you and her. and then when i go back home, i just keep telling myself that, i just too miss you, that's why i couldn't find him afterwards. he was just my imagination. until today, my friend asked me see whether i saw him and maybe his girlfriend sit at couple seat? my heart broke. actually i don;t expect that they saw him. how i know that, she would asked me such question? and of course she don't now the relationship between me and him. and, i learnt a lesson. NEVER LET HIM GO WHEN HE IS HOLDING YOU THIS IS BECAUSE YOU CAN'T LET HIM GO AFTER HE HAD LET GO OF YOU. i need  friend who can really understand my situation now. i'm so suffer. i'm so hurt. i'm so sad. i'm just crying.... lend me some time please. i'm not such a forgetful person. that's why i used 1 year to forget my ex-. i watched a drama. the lady is regret because she doesn't want to admit that she loves him after the guy let go of her. i was just like the lady. the guy likes him so much until one day, the guy left her. but luckily, they're together in the end. of course i know this is just a drama. and i would never have such ending like them. that is why.... it is the time for me to say goodbye to him. GOODBYE, KJAAN....

March now...

so fast. today is the first day of March. i have a good news and also a bad news! the good news is, only 6 pupils pass their addmaths test! and ya! i'm one of them. my chinese paper get the 2nd highest mark. i'm really proud of myself. i get all this marks by myself. but, i'm going to leave. i'm going to leave my house maybe this year. suddenly feel so sad. especially i'm listening to kpop sad song and hearing the conversations between my dad and those strangers. i just feel that they'll buy my house. i'm going to live at a house there is 15-20 minutes far from my school. i forced my parents to teach my how to drive a car. it's more easier for me to go here and go there. i'll be 17 next year. so good la. i can straight away pass my driving lesson! i'm so emo now. i just feel sad to leave my house that i had live for 16 years......... but i think, i need to learn 1 thing very important! i must learn how to let go. same like my relationship, i can't let go so easily.... that's why i'm so suffer from that. unlike him, so relax! i really want to punch him when i saw him! these few days, i'm just crazy for TOU FU FA!! so nice! so smooth. so hot! taste really nice! 

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