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i'm so scared now. i scared because i was feel like myself changed a lot. i had forgot how to smile happily. i miss when i was young. no need to think and solve those fucking crazy problems! i forgot how to cry. 2 years ago, i cried easily. i can drop my tears without 20 seconds! but now. you give me 20 minutes also cannot...... so sad! i forgot how to shout. maybe i want to prove to everyone that i'm a strong girl. so that, never shout in front of anyone. that's why everyone thought that i'm so strong. i never cried in front of people for 3 years. the last time was when i fall down at school. and it was really pain. but after that, no one saw me cry again. how? argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! any solution to solve this problem? just like physics or mathematics. i'm sure there's a formula! there's a solution! help me to find out the solution please! i'm so suffer!!!!!