Let Go...

i am so sad. i am so moody. as a human, i think i should learn something. i should let go something or someone. if not, i was just like now, such an useless female. what should i do now? i cried. i cried because of you. i went to watch movie with my friends. the day before i go, i prayed hardly to God so that i could see you on that day. the God heard what i say. i saw you after the movie had end. i was really damn happy. i can't let my friends know that i love you. to see you more clearly, i ask my friends to walk faster. you saw me. but i act like didn't saw you. i walk so fast behind you. until you're going down, my friend ask me to wait for other friends. before that i saw a new her walking with you. at first, i thought you watch it yourself. unfortunately, you have a new her accompany you. i was so moody after that. maybe the God just want us to look at each other, but not meet. then, you're then far away from me already. until the 2nd floor, i just want to chase after you. but you're just like disappear. seriously, i couldn't find you. and i was just like so suffer when i saw you and her. and then when i go back home, i just keep telling myself that, i just too miss you, that's why i couldn't find him afterwards. he was just my imagination. until today, my friend asked me see whether i saw him and maybe his girlfriend sit at couple seat? my heart broke. actually i don;t expect that they saw him. how i know that, she would asked me such question? and of course she don't now the relationship between me and him. and, i learnt a lesson. NEVER LET HIM GO WHEN HE IS HOLDING YOU THIS IS BECAUSE YOU CAN'T LET HIM GO AFTER HE HAD LET GO OF YOU. i need  friend who can really understand my situation now. i'm so suffer. i'm so hurt. i'm so sad. i'm just crying.... lend me some time please. i'm not such a forgetful person. that's why i used 1 year to forget my ex-. i watched a drama. the lady is regret because she doesn't want to admit that she loves him after the guy let go of her. i was just like the lady. the guy likes him so much until one day, the guy left her. but luckily, they're together in the end. of course i know this is just a drama. and i would never have such ending like them. that is why.... it is the time for me to say goodbye to him. GOODBYE, KJAAN....