July had end...

can't imagine that i had finish my monthly test again. and i met my crush? not crush actually. just my ideal  type. but i know it clearly, we're impossible. 0 probability that we'll have any special relationship status. but just let me always see him. but he's not going to stay at the school anymore until this year. he have to go university. you know? i had such stupid thinking. i want to study foundation and look for him and study with him in a same university. i think he'll see me on that time. you know what? he makes me feel crazy. but i know, after he gone, everything will be fine. i know, it'll be fine. August had came. August, why you come so early? i not yet done all my stuffs and this years is almost going to end. these 8 months passed silently. but i know, i can't regret. haha. so, lots of target i have in my others life. for example, taller, slimmer, backbone is straighter, will have a boyfriend, can et good result in SPM, can earn money, good in drumming, have lots of money, etc..... what a big big dreamsssss. but i know. i'll success. i strongly believe it. anyway, in this 2 weeks holiday, i want to play until crazy, i  want to finish my korean but i think i couldn't. as more as i could finish, i'll try my best! so yeah, holidays had came. it's time for me to work out gym, badminton, jogging, swimming, etc.... seems there's one who can accompany me do all these things. please, let me beg you. appear in front of me! ......