Cry?

my friends asked me whether i cried or not? of course i said NO. they said seriously? never cried after broke up with him? ya. i said NO. haha. i said no point to cry... i lied. ya. i lied. i CRIED. i CRIED so silently. i cried every night. can you feel my sadness and hurtness made by him? no one could. i bet them any girl who is strong as me or even stronger than me would tell her best buddy about this sad thing, they usually have a person who can talk. i DIDN'T. i keep in my heart deeply, maybe he's the deepest. whenever anyone talk about him, no matter how deep i put him in, my heart is still hurt. no one can really fix my heart. my heart had broke 1/4. maybe my soul mate will appear soon. i'm waiting for him. i will ask him to fix back my heart..... to my soul mate, appear in front of me when the timing is good. again. 3 weeks more. exam? damn it! okay la. i'll study. i SWEAR. I WILL. this saturday and next saturday will have singing performance. i think i should take reference book while it turn of me. hahaha! physics, biology, chemistry, sejarah, addmaths, modern maths, moral, malay, english and chinese! 10 subjects that killed me! luckily i didn't choose account! i'll die immediately! should i pay the money to study at outside or at home? i always can't control myself to study at home as i have internet, netbook. haiz. so sad. oh yeah! my netbook's screen had spoil. so i connect my desktop's monitor to my netbook, so, i'm using netbook's keyboard with desktop's monitor. i'm going to buy a new external hard disk! since mine had already spoil since last year? maybe. i'm going to buy a new smart phone. i never buy a new phone since all my phone is gave by my sisters i'm going to buy a new laptop rather than repair the screen. lol....... i'm going to.............